I really don’t know where to begin. My name is Matthew Rodriguez-Thacker. I am seventeen years old, and a senior in high school. I reside in Georgia. I will be graduating in December of this current year 2014. Okay so I really don’t know where to start.
I’ve been going through this emotional toll. So about in the ending of June my mother and I left to New York for a couple of days, so we can fix on her church. One evening I told my mother I was at my cousin’s house, but really I left to the city because Pride was in town. Me being young I just didn’t put any thought into this decision, so I went to the big city alone. I was down there and I was having the time of my life I really regret. So after my view of the city’s life style, I was walking from the pier to the train station and a group of youngsters were walking toward the pier. So I decided to take a side street because I didn’t feel comfortable. As I’m walking down, I hear heavy breathing a couple of yards behind me so I picked up my pace and walked a bit fast. That was when the darkest moment of my life occurred. All I remember was getting hit in the head with what felt to be a fist, then waking up with my pants below my waist. That was the worst day of my life. So after that I never told anyone until about a month later. So I went and got tested for any STD’s. About a week later I had received the news that ultimately changed my life. I came to find out that I have been diagnosed with HIV as of August 21st 2014.
The first couple of days were rough, but I came to realize never to let anything bring me down. I just made a commitment to focus only on school and my ambitions. Before then My ambitions were immense, but I sometimes was deficient of confidence. But now ive realized life is too short to stall on your ambition(s). My ambitions are to become a motivational speaker, actor, singer, poet, and a writer. I want to show people, never to give up no matter the situation. Never to think that you’re a complete fiasco when things don’t turn out the way you hoped. Just keep trying and trying until it finally met your satisfaction. I want to empower young adults around my age range. I just hate seeing youngsters that are so talented never putting in any effort or hard work into their dreams. Also I become upset when people feel as if they have no purpose in this world. Everyone was placed in the world for a reason, they need to realize everyone has a purpose. I really want to get my voice heard and be a role model to the society. I want them to realize no matter how many innumerable tribulations they may face, at no time must the leave high and dry on (a) ambition(s) they eulogize.
I was lost but now I’ve found my purpose. My purpose is to guide the lost mindsets, change the negative ways people think. Also I’ve been place to inspire lyrically, prophetically, and verbally. I’ve also come to realize my destiny. My destiny is to become a brand larger than life. When I ever become in the field of success, no matter what it may bring my way, fame and/or money, I will I never will change who, or the way I am. I will always remember where I come from, and always give thanks to the people that changed and inspired me.
I really do not have any resources , I'm just now learning all the basics. I need a mentor, someone to guide me, help me become a better artist, and help me build a better future. I need my voice to be heard, I need help.
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